The ruin had always abused women, in the Kantian sense. It used them as a means to an end, and the end was ruin of the soul.
On one occasion they were wasted on LSD at a fairground, in some type of spinning machine. The operator called out: “You’re all going to die.” Later, back indoors, they plunged deeper into polydrug abuse…She could not deny what had happened, but hated it. That was the beginning of the end, although she went along with far, far more.